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Where Have All The Straight Men Are Gone???


There's something to be said about drowning one's uncertainties in a cup of grande mint mocha.


"How come you're suddenly so quiet?", a friend asked me the other day after I found her perusing the long line of coffee addicts @ Starbucks.

I shrugged.

Determined to come up with an interesting topic of conversation, I realized there are none at that moment that doesn't involve my current status, which I've often describe as stale and boring.

"What do you think of this card?"

I took the card from her and inside, it says I MISS EEUWW!

"Cute and cheesy kind of way" I handed it back to her.

"Who do you miss?" i asked her.

"Sino pa, eh di si Gobbstopper ko" she looked the other way and I snatched the card out of her hand again.

"You're not sending this to Alex!"

"Why not? I do miss him! When I saw the card, I suddenly remembered him. So I thought I just want him to know that I miss him...I can't help it, I really do!"

"I know but....", I sighed.

She frowned "I don't get it. If you miss someone isn't it better to just tell it straight to that person so you wont regret it and wish later on "if only you had" ...Words and actions speak louder than silence. Hehe"

"Well, my friend... let me just remind you that letter A) he's an asshole..and B) he did you a huge favor when he broke up with you!"

"Yeah.. Life sucks isn't it! I do remember being dumped and lonely, I've cried buckets!" she replied scowling back at me.

"But you'll meet somebody else. Trust me." I pat her arm slightly.

"Say that again or I'll kill you!!!! ...as if there are still norman men left available in this world and you know it! They are either straight GAY or bisexual... GOD !! How depressing!' she took a sip of her caramel macchiato.

"Urggh!!!! ..yeah right ...thank's for reminding me, I wouldn't have known!!!!!"

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Breakfast @ Enterprise

with a twist! ^_^

Tuesday morning at 0700H manila time...

E and I decided to eat breakfast after our much awaited END SHIFT RELEASE! (hehe) Plus it's a weekend tuesday and wednesday.. (TUE-WED kxe ang restday kaya for us, we have our own version - ngayon pa lng mag-end ang week!)

We dont usually eat during our scheduled break or lunch, kxe ginawang 30/30/30 ng mababait na workforce-hindi tuloy namin ma-enjoy ang food. We dont have much time to relish what we're eating and.. subukan mo kayang kumain mag-isa.. magka-appetite ka pa ba nun? *smirk*

So yesterday, we decided to eat breakfast sa may foodcourt ng Enterprise Centre. It was my idea... I used to do that.. before.. with my beloved E119 ( usually with Stef and manong Rudyard...minsan kasama ang mga kagandahang si Will or Louie...at nung wala pang mga bf ang Tonikat at April...*hayyy I miss them sooo much it makes me want to cry* )

Now... thank's to my teammate Ms. EDP... medyo binalik ko ang tradition ng E119...
ANU YUNG TRADITION??? Dati kxe... when E119 were still so much "into each other"... we used to have breakfast after shift even after magkaka-iba na kame ng team. Minsan almost everyday hanggang maubusan ng budget (e.g kapag malapet na ang sweldo) We would usually bond over breakfast sa mga foodcourt ng lahat ng building sa Ayala... so far...favorite namin ang :

GT Tower

Enterprise Centre


PB Com Tower

at minsan Robinson's Summit.. hmpf, this one I wouldn't recommend kxe bulok.. Rudyard naman kxe ano ba'ng definition mo ng maganda? Hehe.

Anyway, enough about E119's breakfast history...
This time.. si E ang kasama ko.. na-miss ko na ang kabab sa may Enterprise kaya at first, I was thinking of ordering a rice kabab meal... but to my utter disappointment,
"hmpf! manong hindi ka pa bukas??"

"hindi pa po mam" at parang gusto nyang sabihin sakin.. hindi ba obvious..ni wala pa ngang nakasalang na meat oh?!

I tried to walk around and check if there were any other rice meal for breakfast but decided against it when I saw E about to place her own order of salad and bagel..ah sandwhich ata oorderin nya...

  • thinkin*

"Hmm, I'm going to the beach next weekend, I need to start some diet!"

So I scanned the menu and chose this:


Ooopss... yung century salad kay E pala yan.. sinama ko lang sa pix..gusto ko sana kainin pero hindi kxe thousand island ang dressing so I tried to enjoy my Red Iced Tea and Tuna Melt Special.


Syempre... chika 2d max over breakfast... we pretty much talked about what a looong day we had sa PS and about:

Samson and Delilah (code name lng toh..mahirap na kxe baka sabihin ng iba we found amusement in talking about other people's lives...which is pretty much normal if you think about it)

ArnArn, another code name from someone I always talk about when I'm with E, kxe sa kanya ko nlang na-she-share dilemma ko about this person.

At xempre kung may ArnArn may Cruella de Ville, our main antagonist..hehe..I told E about how crazy she can get about her bf or.. er... ex-bf (who knows??)

About Mr.Freddy Yellow-guilar and how he became unfair to us everytime the going gets really tough.

I told E about Dean-na-natuto .. (hehe,walang matinong code name sa kanya eh..) And how I suffered for 3 long years just to get over that person who tried to break my heart and succeeded.

"Hayy, the last time I saw him was last December when we had dinner and had coffee at CB&TL... when He first asked me the big Q... at that time, since I just had my heart broken with someone else..well you know the history...syempre I was soo sure sa sinagot ko sa kanya..with matching nakatitig talaga ko sa mata nya..sbi ko "I'm sorry but I dont feel the same way about you and about the big Q, no.. not anymore"

I continued... "but now?? he's asking me the same big Q and I wasn't so sure anymore... a part of me parang No pa din. why would I give him the chance after all this time... pero hindi ako ganun ka-definite... parang Oo na Hindi...if you know what I mean...urgh anung i-re-reply ko??"

And E told me : "Ay nakoh, ang lalaki kapag nag Yes ka..yes na yan forever...kapag nag No ka naman...dun din sila na cha-challenge kaya mangu-ngulit lang din lalu sila"

To make it short.. (parang nobela na kxe toh)
Pinag-usapan lang namin ang mga kalalakihan... on E's side of story, we talked more about her Prince Samson and how this prince is becoming much more like a toad lately.

Wala din kaming na-conclude 'coz we're both clueless whether we're ready to fall for them or not. Hayy.. life can be so depressing sometimes specially if you dont have any other choice but to face your reality or .. face what life has to offer you.

While musing on these thoughts and planning ahead what to do with our current status (lovelife) sabay nagpa-tugtog naman ang foodcourt ng Enterprise... well guess what??

I'm dressed all in blue and I'm remembering you
And the dress you wore when you broke my heart
I'm depressed upstairs and I'm remembering where
And when and how and why'd you have to go so far
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around so come around

I'm dressed all in white and I remember the night
You came on to me and opened up my heart
I was hollow then till you filled me in now I'm empty again
I should have never let it start
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around so come around

Urrgghh!!! Very suggestive.. Thank's for telling us.. we wouldn't have known!!!!

So we pretty much tried to enjoy our breakfast na lang and laugh @ our hearts content! (^__^)

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Little Carol

just for laughs... ^__^


Little Carol came into the kitchen where her mother was making dinner. Her birthday was coming up and she thought this was a good time to tell her mother what she wanted. “Mom, I want a bike for my birthday.”

Now, Little Carol was a bit of a troublemaker. She had gotten into trouble at school and at home. Carol’s mother asked her if she thought she deserved to get a bike for her birthday. Little Carol, of course, thought she did.

Carol’s mother, being a Christian woman, wanted her to reflect on her behavior over the last year, and write a letter to God and tell him why she deserved a bike for her birthday. Little Carol stomped up the steps to her room and sat down to write God a letter.


Dear God:

I have been a very good girl this year and I would like a bike for my birthday. I want a red one.

Your friend,


Carol knew this wasn’t true. She had not been a very good girl this year, so she tore up the letter and started over.


Dear God:

This is your friend Carol. I have been a pretty good girl this year, and I would like a red bike for my birthday.

Thank you,


Carol knew this wasn’t true either. She tore up the letter and started again.


Dear God:

I know I haven’t been a good girl this year. I am very sorry. I will be a good girl if you just send me a red bike for my birthday.

Thank you,


Carol knew, even if it was true, this letter was not going to get her a bike. By now, she was very upset. She went downstairs and told her mother she wanted to go to church. Carol’s mother thought her plan had worked because Carol looked very sad.

“Just be home in time for dinner,” her mother said.

Carol walked down the street to the church and up to the altar. She looked around to see if anyone was there. She picked up a statue of the Virgin Mary, slipped it under her jacket and ran out of the church, down the street, into her house, and up to her room. She shut the door and sat down and wrote her letter to God.






Posted by gilmorgirl 10:31 Comments (0)

get a life!!!

....will you ??!!!!@#!!!!

i am not an aNgeL...


no.. far from it!!!!!!!!!

so forgive me.... if i cannot contain myself anymore and write some nasty comments in this entry!!!!
i want to rant and rave so get ready for it!

will somebody tell me why....

..... there are some people in this crazy world who couldn't manage to keep their mouth shut and just mind their own goddam business!!!!


first of all... i don't have any plans of sacrificing my personal/social life with this client-driven company and if not for the salary that only pays my credit card bill... umalis nko matagal nah!!!

Itong si MNL-im-the-most-obedient-expedia-agent ever... nagmamaganda nalang palagi...

not everyone wanted to be like you!!!!!


we might not be as dedicated as you are with this job... but we're certainly not someone who would literally kiss the management's ass just to please them either!

so just a piece of advise... why dont you continue kissing their ass and let the rest of us manage our own business... because we have a life!

unlike you!!! pakshet ka!!!!


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When Reality Bites...

it bites really hard... and all i can say to that is a resounding... OUCH!!!


I've wanted sooo much to write something meaningful today - coz it's V-Day!

But if your current status would look somewhat like mine, I swear! I could literally stand and cover my heart so that no one would notice that it was nothing but stale and boring lately. Funny thing though, it was not a big deal for me either. I just have this overflowing thoughts that i wanted to share with most of my friends out there.

Now, how do you say and spell the word loooovvveee????
L-O-V-E... Anyone who says their "IN Love"... are they really deeply into it???

Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into your ears.

Ohw, alright.. why dont I cut with all this bullsh*t and go straight to my point.

There is no such thing as a perfect definition of Love.. no perfect partner.. no perfect moment and most absolutely no perfect relationship. if you already knew that you're too big to fit on a small sized t-shirt, dont give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay later on for the damages you have made.

Likewise.. if you knew and felt that the relationship wont last, dont go deeper into it. Trust me, been there, done that! I know some people who suffered the consequences and live like hell the rest of their lives thinking it will get better.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then and only then, you will find peace and realize that you're able to make the right decision all by yourself.

So guys, again.. no matter how overrated it gets sometimes.. or no matter what definition you have in mind right now... the TRUTH still remains... IT IS real and existing! You can't touch it, but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but will knock before you when you least expect it to come.

So AMEN to the text message i just received early this morning...
MABUHAY ANG MGA SINGLE!!!! Hardee-harhar!
At least we have an opportunity to explore and taste all the candies that the love market has to offer.

HAPPY HEARTS DAY and Enjoy Shopping Everyone!!!!

footnote: Let me share with you (again) this letter that i got from some old news paper... which i believe i already shared with some people several times.. but forgive me coz i am really fascinated with it...



I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me..

If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each day, each morning, hoping, dreaming and longing to meet you. I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answer to all my questions.

Sometimes, I ask myself if I have really known LOVE. I do not have the answers to that question either but I believe that more often than not, we will never really known what love is until we find the right person.. and since I haven’t found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what it fells like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment, I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps, ill be drawn to you by your smile, your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don’t really know for sure but I am praying that GOD will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day that I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging unto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me, and that life is the life that I shall be spending with you. In my mind and in my heart, I know that you are worth all the pains and sacrifices. After all, the tears have been a part of my life, slowly washing away my flaws so I’d be perfect not in the truest sense, but just perfect for YOU !

I wonder if you’ve gone through so much pain as well and if you’ve been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don’t ever give up, because I am right here, patiently waiting for you. I assure you that we finally find each other, I’d slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night I’d look at my windows and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me.. I’d utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens, thinking that in time, they’d reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on my way and that you are looking to see me as well.. When I finally fall asleep, you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams, you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.

And this all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality. Once again, I am assured that you are worth the wait. By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys in life and I would be very thankful, because they all lead me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dreams and don’t even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens.

GOD has planned the course. Don’t worry, don’t be afraid of getting lost. GOD WILL SAW TO IT, THAT ALL ROADS, NO MATTER WHICH ONE YOU CHOOSE, LEAD TO ME.

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The World Is My Playground

...an introduction

-17 °C

question: why start a travel blog with a title Haunted and would dare to discuss about the pain that i jjust went through these last couple of months????

answer: plain and simple... but i would rather expound it more if you'd allow me...

i originally wrote it sa friendster blog ko <http://www.femintik.blogs.friendster.com/for_my_eyes_only/> way back last ===== and i believe that it was one part of the journey i needed to go through to enjoy life at it's fullest......so like any other journey or trip that i experience, going places for the first time or even coming back relishing every moment...im going to write down all the emotional, spritual, intellectual or kahit anu pang journey i may encounter (aside from the actual travel around the world itself) in life and write it down in this blog.

to give you a background i have been keeping my friendster blog for about 3 years now since 2005 and i'm still fond of it hook, line and sinker! Although.....i have to warn you (* anyone who's willing to lend their time reading this*)...forgive me but since it's my blog and i have all the right to write down whatever i want and whichever way i want it...please bare with me.

so....to start... i chose to adapt my friendster blog entry Haunted as an introduction to reflect on why i am now right here.. still here...sa PS... and picking up the pieces the way my heart crashes from way back when and tell myself... there's no other way but to move on from that experience and start anew...staunch, unafraid and well driven.

I've said it before and im saying it again, that "Life is a journey, indeed it is!" ... We need to pass each destination with choices that would determine our future... like Dwayne Wade's motto : " fall six times, get up seven! " ... and yes Dwayne, I WILL!!!

i promise to myself i will... so help me God??? hehe...

footnote : title - the world is my playground, adapted to Aiz's friendster blog... tnx aiz in advance!!!! hehe di mu alam toh noh?!


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When You Know *ost serendipity*

...a pre valentine syndrome ^_^


When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.
And you know that you know.


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