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Posted by gilmorgirl 01:56 Archived in Philippines Comments (0)

I am A Travel Specialist of my own life

...so just be

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"Just be"
You can travel the world
But you can't run away
From the person you are in your heart
You can be who you want to be
Make us believe in you
Keep all your light in the dark
If you're searchin for truth
You must look in the mirror
And make sense of what you can see
Just be
Just be

They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
That you take when you want to be real
Flying on planes to exotic locations
Won't teach you
I'm still lost
But I feel so much better

'cause now I know
It's not so far
To were I go
The hardest part
Is inside me
I need
To just be
JUST BE

This song contains a lot of beliefs that I have in life.. starting from the fact that I sometimes believe...that TRAVELLING changes you as a person, but more reveals who you really are.. to the fact that we have to love ourselves before loving somebody else. Even though we say most of the times, after a long journey.. that with the time spend away we have changed. My guess was that we are just discovering who we really are.

Self discovery while being away is similar with packing your luggage when leaving for a trip. When you have to pack your things for a trip, you are being told, and you are aware that you have to take what is extremely important for the travel itself and staying away from your home:

- identity cards (without which you cannot pass the borders)
- clothes (that must keep you warm)
- money (that you use to buy souvenirs, food.. etc)

Right after you have exited your doorway, you say to yourself :"Have I taken all that I need?", and most of the times you did, or you didn't, this is not so important, the feeling is what really matters, whether you are anxious for the trip or for letting something behind.

But.. have you ever thought about packing in this way? :

identity cards(w/out wch you cannot pass the borders)

The "necessary things" are the elements that define YOU as an individual: values, principles, dreams, ambitions in life. When I went to Boracay last summer, I took a lot of "luggage" just to find out there that from all the things that I took, only few of them were really necessary for my life. The rest...? Were just impressions of myself, or things that I wished were extremely important to me.

What I did use in the end? Enthusiasm, Love, Friendship, the power of dreaming on a daily basis, the ability to take what was bad and accept it as a part of my life, and so making it more complex.

clothes.. you find out that they help you but you can live without them..

money .. you find out that they might give you a huge advantage, but if you do not spend it on something you love, it will not count.

These past weekend ... I was listening to some songs I 've already heard hundreds of times and read books I haven't touched in my book shelves for quite a while, but I was really projecting my life for the past 2O something years....

...years of finding the right career, right partner in life, years of identifying what i want to do, where to go , fighting away emotional hang up's and making my own path in life, transfering from one job to another .. all just for a reason: to find out who I am.

And I realized ( and I thank a good friend for sharing it with me) that the minute you start searching for yourself, is the minute when you start knowing yourself. The journey to self discovery starts with one single step, with a simple set of questions: "Who am I? What do I really like? What is important to me? What makes me go forward each day?".

Then again..

"you can travel the world,
but you can run away from the person you are in your heart.
you can be who you want to be
makes us believe in you
keep all your light in the dark
BUT YOU CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM THE PERSON YOU ARE IN YOUR HEART.

The feeling that I need to JUST BE and the magic of life will always surround me. As it did the last time I travelled and enjoyed the trip and as it will, next week, next year.. and for the rest of my life.

As a close soul reminded me this year..
"we must dare to think unthinkable thoughts, because when things become unthinkable, thinking stops and actions become mindless"!

Posted by gilmorgirl 03:29 Comments (0)

MEMENTOS

it's been 2 looong years and i'm still here...hayyzzz

found this dusty old entry sa friendster blog ko.....

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.....TO BID OR NOT TO BID ... ADIEU????

Ilang araw nalang ang titiisin ..ilang gabi ..ilang calls! Patapos na ang taon at twenty-ow-eight nah!!!! Matatapos na din ang paghihintay... sabi nga ni Stef, patience lng my dear friend... Kahit mami-miss ko talaga sila, kailangan na mag decide.. this is for the best, right... I dont wanna go with the details why I need to go and move forward.. but eventually... one by one...E119 has to let go... we have different dreams, different careers to pursue, different aspirations... and to quote Stef again " People come and go in our lives and that's inevitable", ..and TRUE... the only constant thing in this world is CHANGE... and in every changes... memories are to be cherished... and time by time reminisce!
But then again... isn't it.. that each of these moments... are what really counts???

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Paano na ang mga calls na hindi pa nasagot?
Paano na ang party na di pa na-attend-dan ni Daddy?
Paano na ang makitang makipag bati si Ciara kay RB?
Paano na ang marinig pa ulit ang "alright" ni Anita?
Paano na ang makita ulit ang pangalan ni Faith sa csat agent ranking with 3
perfect scores???
Paano na ang makita ang reconcilliation ni Jasper at ng Ex nyang si "J"
Paano na ang band at mga songs ni Charlene na di pa napa'kinggan?
Paano na ang makita ang baby boy or baby girl ni Selah?
Paano na ang mga dirty secrets ni Lambert?
Paano na ang walang kamatayang "ANDUMIYOH" ni Manong Rudy?
Paano na ang makita ulit si Sigrid na kasama ang buong barkada?
Paano na ang pinaka-hihintay kong 100% CSAT na matagal ng di nakita?
Paano na ang love story ni Supie at MNLTs?

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Paano na ang BPG na hndi ko pa ever na-process?
Paano na ang makita si Daddy na maging OM?
Paano na ang kamalditahan ni Ciara?
Paano na ang makita ulit na pumayat si Anita?
Paano na ang mga client ni Faith sa gym na one time lng nya nabigyan ng
instructions?
Paano na ang Paolo ni Jasper?
Paano na ang pag side-jack ni Charlene sa mga agent nya?
Paano na ang pag ninong/ninang ng E119 sa baby ni Selah?
Paano na ang call center hopping ni Lambert?
Paano na ang sisig na di pa na'order ni Rudyard at ang tatlong gatang na kanin
na di pa nya nauubos?
Paano na ang dream date ni Sigrid with TS Orlando Bloom?
Paano na ang marinig ulit ang "HI PAM" ni Jary at ang eye to eye contact kay
Lemar?
Paano na ang mga kalokohan ni Jazzy at Victoria's Secret na di pa nabili kay
Kat?

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Paano na ang love story ni Geoff at ni Paula, or ni Geoff at ni Geusseppi, or ni
Geoff at ni TM Five Cents?
Paano na ang pag treat ni Faye sa team dahil madami syang CSAT na
nakukuha every week?
Paano na ang mga green jokes ni Carlo at pag deny nyang may gf sya sa 3rd floor?
Paano na ang UNPTO na di pa na-apply ni Kai?
Paano na ang 8k na utang ni Carmella kay Kat?
Paano na ang kwentuhan namin ni Daddy Kiko about NBA?
Paano na ang nalalapit na termination lay Ma'eh?
Paano na ang mga unresolved case ni Edd na napupunta samin ang kols?
Paano na ang ma-witness pa ang ka-sweet-tan ni Kalem kay Anita?
Paano na ang eye glass at pagbantay ng CMS ni Byron?
Paano na ang TM na hinahanapan namin ng proof na bading talaga sya.
Paano na ang Tuna spag sa Pantry; Coffee Jelly sa Starbucks; NYF ng Yellow
Cab; taho ni kuya sa labas ng PS bldg; Mexican Spicy Peanuts
na nabili sa Mercury pero inuubos lng din ni Supie,TS Brandon,
TS Mon at ni Kuya Ed; ang breakfast meal sa Jollibee;
cheeseburger (to-go) sa McDo na binibili namin ni Geoff kapag
hindi nkapag-dinner; barbecue sa RCBC Tower; sisig sa resto
near 7/11; black coffee at pineapple juice ng Tropical?

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Paano na ang rocker/former mentor/official Sup na ngayon na si Suzi at
bandang TABASS?
Paano na ang former crush ko'ng si CSA Hunter?
Paano na ang makita si Marie Fe Villacorta na manalo sa PS Idol?
Paano na ang miniature police-bubble head ni Daddy?
Paano na ang team building ng Team Oklahoma?
Paano na ang high waist pants ni OM?
Paano na ang mapanuod ulit ang mga games ng Travel Bruins kahit wala na si
# 21?
Paano na ang makita ulit long hair si P.Nuguid na katulad ng nasa mugshot
nya?
Paano na ang mga manong guards at si Kuya John Lloyd?
Paano na ang final written warning na di pa nag slide-back?
Paano na ang christmas party na di ma-attend-dan dhil ginawang friday ng HR?
Paano na ang pag-gy-gym at ang 15-minute threadmill per session,hehe?
Paano na ang mga NTE's at mga QCFYI's?
Paano na ang locker na puno pa din ng mga training manuals?
Paano na ang kriskringle ng E119?
Paano na ang mga unresolved case ng mga taga Cebu at Sykes?
Paano na ang makitang tumanda itsura ni Sir Beng na forever baby face?
Paano na ang mga collector's item ng Expedia na hindi pa nakuha?
Paano na ang mga Vacation Package na hndi pa na-book; ang mga Flights na hndi pa na-cancel; ang mga Pax na kailangan i-reaccomodate; Guests na kailangang ilipat ng Hotel; Spanish callers na naghahanap ng spanish speaking agents; mga airline agent na ayaw tumulong at ayaw mag bigay ng sine nila ; petix mode thank's to Aeromexico prompter na naglu-loop lng; dalawang oras na paghihintay sa CSA at SSD line; ang pag-docu sa IVR case as per TS Roy pag may matanggap ka'ng irate calls; ang csa they fondly call ASO coz everybody hates her that much; ang pag-sigaw ng CMS watcher ng " NO NEED FOR ACW, WE HAVE 7 MINUTES AVAIL!!! "????

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Paano na ang pag warm transfer na ng mga elite plus member; ang tuma-tanginting na 4k incentive na makukuha lang sa isang perfect csat; ang coffee na hndi pa naiinom sa pantry; ang R31 training nila Aubrey and Dia; chocolate cringles at pugo na dinadala sa station pero tinatago nman sa mga manong guards; ang mga proxy na hndi pa na-surf control ng IT department(hina nila!); ang superior AHT ng Team Oklahoma; ang VTO na pinag aagawan ng lahat ng agent; ang trip incentive; and option na lumipat sa Air Fullfilment (at least di ka'na take ng calls nun dbah); ang gym pass; ang China Bank atm sa lobby na offline kapag payday; ang mga PS points na di na-claim; ang Maxicare na di pa napa-kinabangan; ang Big Flat Screen TV na nilabas lng nung dumating ang mga client; mga name plates na pilit nilang ipapa-pin sa harap ng station mo; ang mga nawawalang prongs at ang locker raid; ang mga spam ng E119 at ng Team Oklmahoma at isama mu nah ang team nla jazzy na napalapit na samin; ang Kudos na hndi nman napo-post ni Supie; ang mugshot na di kagandahan; ang tali ng ID na kulay blue na gusto ko'ng palitan ng kulay dilaw para hndi mukhang forever trainee; ang 11x4 sked na kapagod pla tlga! ; ang CSAT superstar pin na wala ng bisa sakin ahehe; ang mga kols na na-release(oopps,guilty!) ; over aux,over break at over lunch na nakasira ng RTA; ang forever na pagkanta ni Cantil ng Catch Me I'm Fallen' ; Jetblue at Airtran itinerary na ayaw kong matanggap na kols; at paano na c RJ at T.Miller???

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Paano na maririnig ulit ang malakas na tawa ni Daddy? ; ang mga personal advice nya na tumatama talaga ; mga diskarte sa buhay at ang pagmamahal sa trabaho, sa E119 at sa lahat ng agent na hinandle nya?

Paano na ang new image ni Ciara,na naging way para maging in demand sya ng sobra ngayon kahit sya pumunta; ang mga one liner nya na pamatay talaga; ang pag beso nya everytime na makita mo sya; ang pang bu-bully nya kay *** at ang pag amin nya na 100% biatch sya?

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Paano na ang walang kamatayang pagtawa ni Anita sa mga sinasabi ko kahit di naman joke tinatawanan pa din nya; ang chicken noodles na shine-share nya for breakfast kapag andun ako sa condo nla; ang pajama nya na bitin sa akin; ang mga planong gimik na na-excite sya khit hndi natutuloy; at ang career move na pinag-iisipan pa nya?

Paano na ang mga movie na hindi pa namin napanuod ni Faith?; ang girl bonding na hndi natutuloy; mga things na kelangan pa nya bilhin para sa bago nyang condo unit; ang mga notes na may drawing na mga Stars; tooth operation nya; ang kumot na hinihintay nyang ibigay ko dahil nakita ang binili ko for Ciara; mga matatapang na decision nya in life na gusto ko'ng mamana?

Paano na ang pagbabalik ni Lambert sa PS; ang makita na malinis at nalabhan na ang black and yellow backpack nya; ang mga damit na gusto pa nyang bilhin sa F&H at People are People; ang new pad nya,new boylet,new lovelife; at panu na ang na-correct ng pronunciation ng OTO-MATI-CALI? ; paano na si Mr.Cabanatuan?

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Paano na ang pag-increase ng sahod ni Manong Rudyard; ang ulo nya na hndi na skin-head at may buhok na; ang date nila ni Heidi tuwing saturday na hndi nya pde ma-miss kundi malalagot nanaman sya; ang mga rubber shoes na hndi pa nabili; ang bago nyang get-up sa work na black leather shoes,slacks at semi barong; mga kanin na di pa nya nakain; mga laruan sa Toy Store na hndi pa nya nabili at parati lng wini-window shop (parang bata tlga!) ; ang feelings nya for *tooot* ; ang pag text nya ng "pare,kamusta nah" khit globe sya at nagtitipid ng load; ang mga basketball games nya na hndi pa namin napanuod khit minsan; at ang pagnanasa sa knya ni Lambert "lapit na sa kuya, bunso"?

Paano na ang demo tape ni Charlene na di ko pa narinig; ang boses nya na para tlgang ala Jewel; ang QA score sheet na di pa na-fill-up-pan; mga sexy nyang outfit; at paano ko pa makita ang banda nyang malapit ng ma-discover?

Paano na makita si Selah na maliit ang tyan; ang mga psycho analysis ni Kalem; ang petty fights ni Faith at Byron tapos kampihan ko si Faith kase friendship kme,hehe; ang first ever boyfriend and first ever experience na hinihintay ni Elayne; ang offer nilang mag ninong sa baby ni Selah ; ang mga malls na di pa napasyalan ni Anita at Kalem (na sana hndi na sila maligaw sa pagpunta) ; ang not-discreet na pag-surf ni Byron ng hndi sya nahuhuli ng morning shift TM?

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Paano na makita ulit ang smile ni Sigrid? Paano na ang mga emails at spam na hndi pa na'send? ; ang planong isali sa distro si TS Orlando Bloom at ang pagnanasa nya at ang pangarap na mapansin ng long haired TS na yun; paano na ang mga feel good movie na hndi pa napanuod; paano na ang pag-ve-vent out sa isa't isa; ang mga damit na bago pa at hndi pa nasuot pero binili; ang pagsha-shopping ng mga accessories para ibenta sa garrage sale nya; ang mga career plans; mga blogs na hndi pa nabasa or nasulat; ang pag'kanta ng walang kamatayang THE SCIENTIST ; ang pagsabay sa mga lines ni Drew Barrymore sa movie na Ever After na ilang beses nang pinanuod at iniyakan :

Danielle : "A fish may love a bird Senore, but where would they live??"
Senor Da Vinci : "Then, I shall have to make you wings!!!"

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Prince Henry : "But she lied to me!!!"
Da Vinci : "She came to tell you the truth!!!"
"I dont know.... but a Life without Love has no sense at all"
Prince Henry : "And Love without Trust, what of that?!!!"
Da Vinci : (shakes his head) "Well, then...i guess you dont deserve her"


At paano...
paano ang mga blogs ko na di ko pa sa knila napabasa? paano na ang mga panunukso nila Daddy Kiko at Jasper tungkol sa buddah? paano na ang 100% na CSAT na hndi ko na ulit makuha? paano na ang pagbibiro ni Carlo at TS Mon? paano na makikilala pa si Tuble,Canete at Paigan? paano na kapag namimiss ko ang pulis? paano ang mga payout na di pa nadi-discover? paano ang mga email ko kay sigrid na araw araw kong ginagawa? paano ang mga hug ko kay Faith at Cantil? paano ang mga beso ko from Ciara? paano ang mga balak na gimik ng E119 lalu na ang Sunday Group na member si Jasper,Lambert,Me at Manong Rudy? paano na mangyayari sa lovelife ni Geoff? paano na ang panunukso kay Supie at MNLT? paano ang mga UNPTO na di pa na-approve ng workforce? paano na ang bag ng PS na hndi pa nalabhan? paano na ang Fitness First na pants na bigay ni Faith? Ang Expedia tumbler ; ang mga Nicholas Sparks at H.Potter novel na hndi pa nabasa ; mga pictures na hndi pa na-take at na-upload ; mga testimonial ni Faith na hndi nya masulat-sulat ; at testi for Anita na hndi pa ma-compose ; ang kumot na pinapabili ni Jasper at Faith ; ang ballpen na hiniram at hdni pa nabalik ; ang piggy monokuro boo na coffee mug at coin purse ; ang word game na pilit sinasagutan na kumalat na ang link sa buong team ; four cups of coffee per night na hndi pa nainom ; ang steno notebook na ginawang journal ; ang 20 page letter na hndi na nabigay sa buddah ; ang payong na naiwan sa bus,sa lobby,sa taxi ; paano na ang mga admirers ko na si ___ at si _____ (hehe,hndi ako nagsabi nyan huh) ; paano na ang mga calls na nakalimutan i-document? paano na ang pagbigkas ng THANK YOU FOR CALLING EXPEDIA.COM for the umpteenth time kahit tulog? paano ang next na outing ng E119 na kasama si Daddy kung hndi ako papa-abot ng summer '08 sa PS? paano na ang Anniversary ng Manila's Finest ngayong December 20?
at higit sa lahat...........

......paano kung hindi ko na sila ulit makita????

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Posted by gilmorgirl 21:06 Comments (0)

catch a falling star....

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Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away!
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!

For love may come an' tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
Just in case you feel you wanna’ hold her,
You’ll have a pocketful of starlight!

Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy day! )

For love may come and tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
An’ just in case you feel you wanta’ hold her,
You’ll have a pocketful of starlight!

( . . . pocketful of starlight! ) [ hum in time ]

Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy . . . Save it for a rainy, rainy rainy day! )

For when your troubles startn’ multiplyin’,
An' they just might!
It’s easy to forget them without tryin’,
With just a pocketful of starlight!

Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!

( Save it for rainy day! ) Save it for a rainy day!

Posted by gilmorgirl 12:34 Comments (2)

SEPTEMBER is the month for .........

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.....BIRTHDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

So many of my friends have birthdays in the month of September! Not only is last SEPTEMBER 2nd my birthday, but also Daddy Dennis's !!!

Happy Birthday to those who have September birthdays: Steph, Tala, Carlo, Malik, Majesty, Dianne, Lovely...

If I have forgotten anyone, please forgive me!

Just finished Susan Elizabeth Phillips ‘Match Me if You Can’ and loved it! Laughed out loud in several places.

Off to celebrate today for ****** hehe...

Will let you know what I come home with!


footnote :
"A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip."~Unknown

Posted by gilmorgirl 04:03 Comments (1)

Life's Greatest Advice

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Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't trust
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be. Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.

Your time is your life.

That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

Posted by gilmorgirl 00:35 Comments (0)

Currently Reading........

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In TRUE BELIEVER, journalist Jeremy Marsh spends his time debunking the supernatural. He has just finished exposing a fake television psychic, proving that the man was not able to read people's minds or see into their pasts. When he hears about a phenomenon happening in the small town of Boone Creek in North Carolina, where ghosts are seen inhabiting a local cemetery, Jeremy knows he will be able to find the truth behind the lights that are seen glimmering on certain nights above the cemetery grounds. He knows that ghosts do not truly exist.

When Jeremy arrives in Boone Creek, he experiences what small town life is all about. He's from the big city and feels like he's walked into a time warp. Everyone knows everyone, and gossip spreads like wildfire. His "hotel" is a hole-in-the-wall motel, filled with dead animals ranging from a bear to snakes and all sorts of wonderful critters that can be found in the wild. He's as far from New York as he can get, and he's not sure he likes it.

The very day he arrives in town, Jeremy makes a quick visit to Cedar Creek Cemetery, where the ghosts are reported to have been seen, when he notices a young woman there who catches his eye. He later finds out that her name is Lexie Darnell. Neither of them knows it but soon their lives will be changed forever. Lexie is the granddaughter of the woman who had invited him to visit the town. Doris Marsh is the town psychic.

As Jeremy slowly does his research in the library where Lexie happens to work, he gets to know her. Despite what he feels about the town, he finds himself interested in this woman who doesn't seem to want anything to do with him.

Posted by gilmorgirl 12:00 Comments (0)

...wherefore art thou?

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Not sure where my motivation for writing has gone. I used to live, eat, and breathe it.

Could be because I now lack inspiration. Could be the hours I put in at work at a much more demanding, high pressure job now. Could be that I stopped writing regularly enough and have lost my mojo (is that really a word?).

Could be a lot of things!

But to quote my favorite line in ‘A League of Their Own’ - There is no crying in baseball (or in writing!)

So, I will suck it up and start by searching for the motivation and inspiration I used to have.

To find that rush again. That muse.

To find that excitement where I couldn’t shut my eyes at night with all the planning and plotting.

To find the that moment again where I believed I could do anything I put my mind to.

Where I was invincible.

With dreams fuelling my courage, I started doing what I loved, embarking on a journey that would fulfill me and my dreams. Oooh I could go on...

But life can get in the way.

Although I am not at the place in my writing I want to be at, I refuse to give up.

I don’t have a plan. I don’t have a roadmap.

But I can still get there....

Posted by gilmorgirl 12:53 Comments (1)

Like a VIRGIN?

understanding Virgo women...

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She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress.. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier. She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently.

She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one.. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time..

Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry, make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny.

In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too.

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

Posted by gilmorgirl 07:18 Comments (1)

DEAN and DELUCA

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I've just had the cutest and at the same time strange dream last night!

I was @ the coffee shop reading my favorite novel by Nicholas Sparks while seriously contemplating why on Earth everyone has a companion and i dont...

And there's this one particular couple PDA-ying galore in front of me, they sit so close to each other their noses touched every once and again.. i began to feel annoyed so i just took out my celphone and began to type something. It was what I usually do when i feel self conscious, alone! The worst thing was to look alone, even worse to look uncomfortable that way.

Then after an hour or so, I decided to leave when suddenly I recognized a familiar face from afar. He had the softest eyes i had ever seen, the kind that usually owned by actors like Tom Welling and that Jullian guy from a korea novela my mom used to watch. His smile kinda gave him an air of innocence that suits him well if you know what i mean.

So i decided to stay for a while and as i watched him with fascination... he sat there, pulled open the screen of his blue iMac and began to type something... I was almost sure he was writing fiction. He had that look as if he where somewhere else and barely knew that every girl who passed by his table look at him with showed interest.

After a better portion of 30 minutes, he closed his screen, looked straight to where i was sitting and began to collect his things....

I watched but didn't dare to breathe as he rose and made his way to my booth. When he finally stood before me, holding his coffee mug... i felt weird coz somehow I expected him to be wearing a gold ring on his wedding finger. I waited if he's going to clink it on his mug - like an old habit but surprisingly there was no ring there.

And as if he knew - he tapped his finger all the same. And he raised his eyebrows as if to say "hey i know that you know"

And then........ i woke up!!!!!!!!

It was like a dream that you want to went on and on and on but then you had to wake up!!!!!

The odd thing about most dreams is that no matter how vivid they are at the time, the details are usually forgotten shortly after you wake up. But then again, there are dreams that are striking enough for the mood, if not for the specifics to stick with you the entire day but you have no idea what it means to you and to your life and.... ohw okay, so i kinda know what it means... i took Psyche101 in college. Although, im not as good as Sigmund Freud to interpret my dreams accurately....

I guess, it was about unresolved feelings or forbidden desire which im trying hard enough to decipher... I wish i studied divination or something... feeling Madame Auring anyone????

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HEART HAS IT'S WAY OF KNOWING : LOVE WILL FIND IT'S WAY ...

excerpt from stephanie's love letter...an adaptation :


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You could sure be happy or miserable and I may not know.

But I was really shattered the day you let me go...

And all the things you have done and said,

Are played like firewall till madness loops in my head.

But we could have been so much stronger and this has not been over,

When it only started with screaming silence blur.

Whatever it takes such life to be human again and fly,

I just said that.... until there is someone else.

I just said it ... I only said it...

Posted by gilmorgirl 12:16 Comments (1)

when someone tells you......

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..... not to think about something... what do you think about???

EXACTLY!!! ....the very thing you are NOT suppose to think about, right?!!!@#

But do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives, or if the moments in our lives make us?
Do you ever wonder how long it takes to change your life? What measure of time isn’t enough for life altering? Can tour life change in a month? Or a week? Or a single day?

We are always in a hurry, to grow up, to be in places, to be in a relationship, to get ahead… but when tour not that young anymore, one hour, a single moment or a minute can change your life.

If you could go back and change just one thing about your life, would you?

And if you did, would that change make your life better?

Or would that change ultimately break your heart again and the heart of another?

Would you choose an entirely different path or would you choose just one moment, just one moment that you always wanted back????

Posted by gilmorgirl 13:31 Comments (1)

the MEANTIME girl

are you one of them??????

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She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One".... You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable – she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine. You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her. She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs – she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.

You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.

She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want to let every guy know who's ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot.

And someday we won't be around!

Posted by gilmorgirl 06:06 Comments (0)

Dito daw nauntog ang friend kong si Kate

hmmm....

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Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he might have for us is just too far from how you love him. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you.

Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.

And when it does, pray

pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him.

...But he will never be loved again the way that you did.

Posted by gilmorgirl 04:55 Comments (3)

...

-17 °C

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I have been thwarted...

by Cupid... again!

Well, it was five whole months ago now, but I needed that long to digest it. Which isn’t to say I’m over it. How pathetic is that at the five month mark?

It’s remarkable how emotions can really take over my entire existence. It’s also frightening to me that emotion has no attachment to my intellect, as my intellect usually has a really good grip on things and it would be awesome if some of it would transfer to my destroyed emotion organ, whatever that is in biological terms.

I just hope you don’t do this again.
I hope you remember the pain on my face.
I hope you don’t let yourself off the hook for causing it.
I hope you take responsibility and actually change, instead of just talking about it.
I hope you’re okay.
I hope some of my kindness rubbed off.

And most of all, I hope you forgive yourself...

the way everybody else did.

Posted by gilmorgirl 09:29 Comments (1)

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